Happy Sunday! Now this is a topic that has been the bane of my life for many months, heck even years. I thought I would write a post today on reasons why I need to find my motivation and works towards becoming fit and healthy. I've struggled with my weight since I can remember, there's never been a time when I've felt truly happy with how I look. Which thinking about is actually quite sad. I just have a very negative opinion of my body, which I think is body dismorphia (please correct me if I'm wrong cause I'm not a hundred percent on that!)
We all have our reasons why we choose to say enough is enough so here are three of my main ones:
My Brother's Wedding
The main reason is that my brother is getting married in July and I have been asked to be a bridesmaid. We have the dresses, and mine does fit. However, I know it can look a lot better as I currently feel like crap in mine. I want to feel somewhat glamorous on my brother's big day and not hate my arms in every single picture. Operation bridesmaid is on!
How My Clothes Fit
God my outfits have become so dull recently. When I was at uni I would make a conscious effort to come up with varying outfits. But all I've stuck to lately is baggy tops and leggings so my whole body is covered up! There's so many nice things in my wardrobe that I just feel like I can;t wear right now as they show off parts of my body I've grown to hate. I would love to be able to go into shops or online and get a smaller size of clothing, i miss that feeling!
Stress
For someone like me who feels anxious everyday and worries over every little detail, exercise I think will be great to help combat that. My job has caused me so much stress recently that all i want to do is sleep and sleep... and sleep more. I went to the gym yesterday for the first time in months and afterwards I felt so good. It's a chance for me to take time to focus on myself, be on my own with headphones in and just push myself. It's going to be a really slow journey as I am so unfit, but baby steps and all that.
So there are some of my motivational reasons I guess you could say. If you have any please let me know!
Also I have to say how much I love my new food diary, the quote on the front is just so me. Sometimes you just have to include a swear word. I bought it on Etsy here - I am loving that website at the moment.
