Weekend Away With The Girls

I'm a little bit of a dreamer, I always have these ideas I want to do but talk myself out of it. I am on a mission to go away on more little trips as I'm such a hermit and spend so much time at home. Last September I mentioned to my girl friends that I really wanted to do a weekend away, stay somewhere like a cabin and be a bit boujee by finding somewhere with a hot. They are like the in thing right now and Instagram just makes them look pretty. We don't all live around the same area and being adults and all we barely get time when the six of us can hang out. Its not like when we were back in school and could hang out most of the time. So we all decided that we'd free a weekend in our diaries and go somewhere for a little reunion. Towards the end of last year I was feeling extremely lonely and like I'd lost contact with everyone. So I really do value the time I get to spend with the people I care about. We of course always had so much to talk about and bought a large supply of Prosecco (or beer for Ania).

I Needed A Break

I haven't posted on here in eight months! I think that is one of the longest breaks I've had in years, well since I started writing more frequently on here. I'll be honest I didn't get along with 2018 and I don't think it particularly liked me either. I just seem to attract bad luck.  It was a somewhat quiet year for me, I didn't go on any holidays and I spent a lot of time daydreaming, not being productive and comparing myself to everyone else (continuous scrolling through Instagram). I didn't want to write on here and not really enjoy the posts I was doing. Plus I've lacked so much inspiration recently.

I think I'm learning that its important for me to take time out. I feel guilty when I'm sat doing nothing. Like yesterday for example it snowed quite a bit so my work was shut. I had to make sure I did some sort of work so I sat cuddled in a blanket doing part of an online course about excel; I was not loving life! Its got to the point where I can't sit still and just watch something without thinking I should be doing something out. But I'm telling you I want to make time to sit and do fuck all.

I also want to get the bug for exercise again. I have so built up frustration and anger that I need to release it somehow. Plus I'm so lazy and in the worst shape I think I've ever been in. God I love being someone who just gains weight like its nothing...

 Instagram is great for discovering places to visit and I found a picture of a witch themed shop in Burley, in the New Forest. In case you didn't know I love anything to do with witches. So back in October last year, my sister and I actually planned a day and we drove there and visited Burley. I'm desperate to go back and explore more. Who knew there were places where wild horses and cows could just wonder around on the side of the roads. It was honestly one of the most beautiful places I've been too, like a scene from a Bob Ross painting. I took time to do something I'd wanted to and got to just be outside and not worry about anything. Honestly to have a weekend where I felt no form of worry or anxiety meant the world!

It feels really good to be writing again and I'm hoping I feel inspired. This blog needs a major update so better start brainstorming. If you have got to the end of this post and actually read it then thank you. Its a miracle that someone out there would even contemplate reading the nonsense I come up with x

Two Make Up Summer Additions

Long time, no see! I've been having a break on here due to deadlines at work and taking some time out for myself. I actually have a bit of a social life lately as everyone's birthdays seem to be in April and May. Let's just say alcohol and I aren't friends at the moment. Clearly now being 24 has an effect on how hungover I feel. Also I've been really ill recently, I always seem to get the flu when the weather is hot. It doesn't make sense!

Anyway back on topic! I popped into Superdrug for the first time in a while and saw that L'Oreal bought out a summer make up range. I was on a mission to buy a couple of products that I'd seen in a couple of reviews (you know I need some other peoples opinions to justify me buying it). As the weather has been crazy hot in the UK the last few weeks I've been wearing less.

The first thing I bought was the lip scrub in the flavour Peach Twist as I love anything Peach scented. A grim fact about me is when I'm anxious or thinking i pick at my lips. No I can't be normal and bite my nails. Anyway this scrub is so nice and it has exfoliating bits in which have worked a treat. I would highly recommend, plus i love the sherbet orange packaging.

Now I haven't bought myself a bronzer in years as I haven;t really used it. But I heard good things about the Back to Bronze, so I treated myself. It's not an orangey colour which I full appreciate. Not many bronzer products suit me as I have fair skin, but this seems to be doing the trick. Give me that sunkissed look!

Hope you're all having a lovely week!

Trying Out IGK Hair Products

Its been a while since I've bought anything new for my hair. I am probably one of the laziest people when it comes to my hair, I'm just not very good at making it look presentable. I have the most unruly, frizzy, curly hair. Its been the bane of my life since I can remember, I had a combination of an afro and perm as a kid. But for a few years now I've been growing my hair as I've always had this dream to have really long hair. And for once it's actually getting there. Don't get me wrong I still have a long way to go but it's the longest it's ever been and I'm not complaining.

Health and Fitness Thoughts

Happy Sunday! Now this is a topic that has been the bane of my life for many months, heck even years. I thought I would write a post today on reasons why I need to find my motivation and works towards becoming fit and healthy.  I've struggled with my weight since I can remember, there's never been a time when I've felt truly happy with how I look. Which thinking about is actually quite sad. I just have a very negative opinion of my body, which I think is body dismorphia (please correct me if I'm wrong cause I'm not a hundred percent on that!)
We all have our reasons why we choose to say enough is enough so here are three of my main ones:

My Brother's Wedding

The main reason is that my brother is getting married in July and I have been asked to be a bridesmaid. We have the dresses, and mine does fit. However, I know it can look a lot better as I currently feel like crap in mine. I want to feel somewhat glamorous on my brother's big day and not hate my arms in every single picture. Operation bridesmaid is on!

How My Clothes Fit

God my outfits have become so dull recently. When I was at uni I would make a conscious effort to come up with varying outfits. But all I've stuck to lately is baggy tops and leggings so my whole body is covered up! There's so many nice things in my wardrobe that I just feel like I can;t wear right now as they show off parts of my body I've grown to hate. I would love to be able to go into shops or online and get a smaller size of clothing, i miss that feeling!

Stress

For someone like me who feels anxious everyday and worries over every little detail, exercise I think will be great to help combat that. My job has caused me so much stress recently that all i want to do is sleep and sleep... and sleep more. I went to the gym yesterday for the first time in months and afterwards I felt so good. It's a chance for me to take time to focus on myself, be on my own with headphones in and just push myself. It's going to be a really slow journey as I am so unfit, but baby steps and all that. 

So there are some of my motivational reasons I guess you could say. If you have any please let me know! 

Also I have to say how much I love my new food diary, the quote on the front is just so me. Sometimes you just have to include a swear word. I bought it on Etsy here - I am loving that website at the moment. 

Rainbow and Loud

 Asos Bright Stripe Jumper - £22.00

A fashion themed post, I know what is happening. It's been a long time since I've posted any outfit posts as well let's face it the self confidence has been real low lately. But I just had to share this jumper I bought a little while a go as I'm a little bit obsessed.

Rainbow seems to be a real trend at the moment and I love it. I've been really inspired by bloggers lately and seen so many bright coloured pieces. I usually hide behind black and white outfits, but I think it's time to have a little more fun. My style has become quite boring lately so I'm trying to bring back the buzz I used to have when creating outfits. I hope soon I will be able to outfit posts outside... maybe...one day.

Originally I wanted to buy a glittery striped jumper from Warehouse, but like everything I have my eye on it sold out so quickly! But i found this little bright number from Asos. I pair this jumper usually with black jeans so the focus is entirely on this piece, but I think it would look great with a blue denim skirt as well. It's a great jumper to wear when you're having a bad day as it just instantly boosts your mood, and i need that as I'm always feeling the blues at the start of the year!

Mini Colourpop Haul

So first off, hello 2018! Bit delayed but happy new year (even though I'm currently experiencing a case of the January blues!). So I said throughout January I wouldn't place any orders, well I clearly failed at that... 

A little while ago I watched a make up tutorial of a navy blue glitter eye look, and Colourpop was the brand used. I kept thinking about it and wanting to recreate it myself. After scrolling through the website countless times and seeing what looked like the prettiest eye shadow shades, I decided to just say sod it and place an order. I could have done some serious damage to my bank account, but I stuck with four things. Sadly one of the shades I purchased arrived broken, I suppose it did come on a long journey from Los Angeles. It was the shade called I heart this, and was supposed to be a birthday present for my friend, guess I'll have to think of something else eh.